fitness

i think i’m going to start working out at home.  i would go to a gym, but it seems pointless to join a gym when i’m going to be moving in a few months and the gyms that are chains are expensive and always packed.

none of you (except for K) know that i suffer from regular bouts of depression.  not severe enough that i need medication, but i did go to counseling on a regular basis in my senior year at Spelman.  my “spells” had greatly decreased when i moved out in december, but now i’m having all-day spells on saturdays.  i think its the stress of losing my roommate, plus the fact that i never thought i’d be getting a divorce at 28.  in my grand plan for my life this was the year i was supposed to start having children. 

anyway, it was  suggested to me that i find something to do with myself to occupy my time so i’ve decided to do some form of exercise and to play more video games.  there’s a show called Inhale that comes on every morning where they do yoga.  i’m going to DVR it starting tomorrow and then do it when i get home.  that plus now Saturdays will be devoted entirely to my Wii, unless something else comes up.

 i think its a good plan.

one more week

a few weeks ago, my roommate’s boyfriend was transferred by his job, so that his “territory” was the DC metro area.  this is great news for both of them because he was living in Michigan and if he hadn’t received this transfer then, she would either have had to move back home, where she would have had a hard time finding a job, or spent another year away from him.

 now that he’s here they can live together and she doesn’t have to make an major changes.  that’s sad for me because even though we’ve only lived together for over 2 months, we became great friends instantly.  i’m happy for them, but i’m sad that i won’t be able to see my friend everyday.

 my new roommate will be moving in next weekend.  we’ve met a couple of times and she seems like she’s really nice, but b/c her boyfriend is here, i don’t know how much time she and i will spend together.  *sigh* it seems that i’ll be spending a lot of weekends alone, until i move back to VA.  such is life.  i’ll really miss living with her.

Time for a New Job

I need a new career.  I was in LA all last week, and Tuesday when I had to get up and go to work again, I actually started crying, simply because I didn’t want to go to work.  It isn’t the act of teaching that upsets me, but all of the other political b-s that comes along with it.  If I could just teach and be left alone, I’d be fine.  My other problem, which is probably my biggest problem is that I don’t get paid enough to live alone.

That is the only issue I’ve had since getting separated.  I don’t miss ExH (ex-husband).  I’m just angry that I can’t afford to live on my own.  I don’t live extravagantly.  I do have quite a bit of debt that ExH helped me to create, but I’m not making huge payments to anyone monthly.  If I had any other job, then I’d totally be able to support myself but because I’m a “lowly” teacher I can’t.  I have to have a second job.

Don’t get me wrong, I like my second job.  Teaching evening school is even more enjoyable than day school most days.  The problem is that its still teaching which means lesson plans, grading and sub plans when I’m going to be absent.  I shouldn’t need to have a part-time job in order to survive.  I am a grown woman, with a Master’s degree who needs a roommate in order to pay the bills.

This is ridiculous and I refuse to do it next year.  I love teaching and I love the kids, but it’ll just have to wait until I’m out of debt.  Then I’ll go back to it.